The Conceptorealisation© of I

I realised I (was? am?) still coming into the full awareness of I, upon my arrival at the Principium Individuationis of I.

Becoming acquainted with the works of Nietzsche (thanks to my mom) right from my childhood days. He is one entity I have loved and respected for as long as I can remember; also becoming acquainted with his personal life, of which its highlight  was the tempestuous love affair he had with Lou Salome. 

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What manner of woman could she have been to have been to have driven and inspired Nietzsche so ?

Perhaps, another time; I might delve in deeper...

As I was saying,  when I got to this point in my life (this was shortly after mother earth and her destructive seeds entered into the age of aquarius), it was not euphoria that enveloped me; rather, it was a steady growing ball of warmth...

A ball of warmth that originated at the point of my ribcage curvature, directly below my diaphragm.

A ball of warmth that grew with each stroke of the passing time, suffusing my entire belly with pre and post orgasmic delight...

It was an amazing feeling never before felt by I. What was this? Maturity? It cannot be that simple, surely?

Then, I remembered Nietzsche and the Principium Individuationis….

The first time I came across the Principle of Individuation (Principuim Individuationis) was in “The Birth of Tragedy” (a book by Nietzsche). Although at that time I understood it from the point of the pseudo-romanticism of empathy.

Now, I feel as though the verse speaks directly to me as I begin my journey, in the Age of Aquarius:

CAUGHT IN THE VEIL OF MAYA

"Even on an immense raging sea,assailed by huge wave crests, a man sits in a little row boat, trusting his frail craft. So, amidst the furious torments of the world, the Individual sits tranquilly, supported by the Principium Individuationis and relying on it. One might say that the unshakeable confidence in that Principium has received its most magnificent expression in Apollo, and that Apollo himself might be regarded as the marvelous divine image of the Principium Individuationis, whose looks and gestures radiate the full delight, wisdom and beauty of "illusion".

Friedrich Nietzsche 1872 (c)

The more I pondered on the differences that constitute Apollo and Dionysius, the more I saw the different components of my person beginning to form a cohesive unit. It is about not rejecting a part of you because it is not perfect. 

               It is the embracing of your Truth.

          It is the embracing of your Ugly.

        It is the embracing of your Light.

      It is the embracing of your Dark.

It is about the acceptance of all of your fascinatingly imperfect diverse components which form into a perfectly integrated whole.

It is about the embracing of ALL of you that makes you YOU. 

A Singula Molecular Humanus©.
An SMH©.

It is about the different components of YOU becoming an integrated entity without necessarily losing their individuality.

What makes this work when you arrive at the door to self-realisation? It is the understanding of the Principium Individuationis. 

I have walked through the door. Now, hunting for co-ordinates to guide me on this journey to self actualisation...

I wrote something. I called it Apollysian (a hybrid of the Apollonian and the Dionysian):

This is the de-Construction of I... conceptualised, constructed and inscribed by I. 

APOLLYSIAN

Apollonian / Dionysian

Tactile /  Olfactrious

Visual / Auditory

Degenerate / Prude

Naive / Knowing

Light / Dark.

Virgin / Whore. 

Esther / Jezebel. 

Child / Woman. 

Omo / Iman. 

Omo Faith. 

Child of Faith

For ever.  

For always.

Your worst friend. 

Your best enemy.

Loving, but cold.

Loyal, but unfaithful.

Fallen angel with wings intact.

Am I the definition of I, or,  is it I ?

Total Ditz.  

100% Nerd.

Exhibiting impractical domesticity. 

A Lover of beauty in humanity.

A respecter of her ugliness. 

A humanitarian with a heart of stone. 

A kind-hearted sadist. 

Retained by all, yet retaining none.

Belonging to none, yet all.

Am I the definition of I,  or,  is it I ?

A lover of Symmetry. . .   with discord.

A A lover of symmetry... with discord.

A believer of truth... with borders.

An advocate of freedom... with limits.

A staunch believer of GOD.  

A lover of beauty with depth. 

A health-conscious hedonist. 

Having the easy ability to grasp the most complex subjects,while being completely clueLess about the most basic concepts.

Am I the definition of I, or is it I ?

A submissive Domina. 

A brutal, yet tender lover...

Devouring the essence...

Blowing out love. ♥️

Nothing  

 

A dreamer with feet of lead. 

A idealist with a full head of air. 

A devil in human form. 

An angel in devil form. 

A believer in lies. 

Cynically retarded.

Sensually inSensitive. 

Dual personalities.

Uno Integrata. 

Am I the definition of I, or,  is it I?

I Am I     becoming

Not yet     I Am 

The ace of spade I hold

is naught but a hole

into a tale untold

by the future of the past

An old soul...

Encased by a body in gaol

An old soul in prison

Within the child, old eyes a-peeking

With a heart so black

And a soul so white

With soul so black

And a heart so white

White heart ± black soul.

Black heart ± white Soul.

White Soul.  Black Heart

Many are called

None are chosen

Few are chosen

None are called

Journeys so proFound

Are meant to be walked alone

Unfettered, unshackled

At one with the wind

At one with the sun

At one with the rain

One with the skies

Am I the Definition of I, or, is it I?

Rocketing through the eye of the vortex in stilettos

Floating on a serene leaf in Poseidon’s terrain

Un Gardien de l'humanité 'secret

Buried in the abyss of heart

Never to be told.

I Am the complete version of I.

The ONLY version of I.

Pure.

Feral

Primal.

Refined.

Unbridled.

AUTHENTIC !!!

Am I the definition of I, or,  is it I?

Who am I to I

I Am...  

I

(Originally published on 28 February, 2013)